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2026
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part of my old house collapsing
a co-worker pretending to steal my money
a girl I like making me a plate of food
a girl masturbating on the phone
a girl I liked and driving to a grocery store
chancing upon a lunch lady from elementary school
Anderson Silva coming back to the UFC
walking to Jacksonville Beach and seeing a huge whale
looking for eggnog at an outdoor Christmas store
searching my house and seeing Fat Joe
finally meeting an ex-housemate
leading the charge against a tyrannical landlady
living in an apartment with a dining room
a new pair of shoes and a dangerous freeway trip
saving the life of someone also named Marcel
walking thru my apartment building
Eugene getting knocked out in class
a video I shot in a high school science lab
a five-part Steven Spielberg movie
having an interesting discussion with a woman at a table
watching a video of a girl being killed
overhearing my lesbian roommate have sex
a girl interviewing me for school
living in an apartment in Detroit
having sex with Michelle Waterson
watching a movie that started to become real
my next-door neighbor and a bunch of dogs
a girl who was about to let me put my tongue in her ass
living in a college dorm and seeing an enormous insect
a gay school teacher giving me his phone number
lying to a high school security guard to get out of trouble
a girl staring at me like she wanted to fuck
witnessing a crazy traffic collision
taking pictures of girls I used to know
two old people who vacationed a lot
being at school with Wendy and Leanne
a video girl who seemed to have a crush on me
kissing and fondling a girl named Wendy
living with people and a caged bird
walking to a college campus and teleporting back home to get my car
a teen prison inmate attempting an escape
a man and a woman near the end of their romance
being on a tower and trying to run home before being eaten by lions
attending an event with tables of free White Castle burgers
waiting till the last minutes to study for a college exam
taking notes in a history class
taking a photo of a police officer at my job
seeing an airplane going down outside my window
working in a mansion with Sheila
being trapped nude in a bathroom stall
going to Solomon’s Temple in Detroit
seeing two dragons fighting in the night sky
hiring Pinky and Misty to exercise at my mother’s house
asking for Cap’n Crunch at Target
somehow getting an enormous amount of cash from a bank ATM
trying to interview Hulk Hogan for the site
being featured on a “reality” TV show with Jack Osbourne
my boss Heather sitting on my face
being in an elementary school reading class
playing Night Of The Living Dead
trading insults with a girl named Eliza
a tube of peanut butter toothpaste
a girl giving me her baby in Miss Dubose’s class
I was where it seems most of my dreams have been taking place recently; the house I grew up in. I didn’t live there anymore; it was quite dilapidated; rather on a return visit to grab the last of my stuff before abandoning it for good. Most of that stuff was in my main room; the front upstairs bedroom I never kept a bed in. It was my hangout room where I’d listen to music and make music with my friends.
According to the news, there was a tornado coming; I remember seeing huge dark clouds out the window; and I was concerned the house wouldn’t withstand the hit. I don’t know why I didn’t leave. It didn’t seem too late to outdrive the storm; there were plenty of cars on the street turned six-lane highway; but it seemed I was stuck, perhaps having to rely on a ride because I didn’t have a car.
I sort of wanted to stay anyway to grab my stuff before the tornado could or at least be around to salvage it from the streets. The problem was that, in this dream, that whole aforementioned room, where most of my stuff was, stuck out like a balcony and was dangerously close to collapsing. I remember thinking, as it rocked and creaked, that I’d probably survive the fall, but I didn’t want to get hurt.
It was a matter of going in, grabbing stuff and going back into the center living room before it could fall, which I did until it fell. “Oh shit”, I uttered as the floor gave in. It happened just as I was about to step on it, giving me just enough time to step back, but the room didn’t totally collapse like I thought it would. It sort of toppled over with the floor still connected but hanging down at about a 90-degree angle.
It was a close call indeed; I could’ve been seriously injured; but relief was fleeting. I was now concerned because my stuff; an assortment of mostly small items I wanted to move to my new place; now lay scattered across the front porch and yard amidst a mess of glass, wood, brick, cement and other building materials. Driving by, as people still were, you’d think the tornado had already been through.
2026 May 09
I’d just put a dime in some sort of vending machine to buy some sort of newspaper I was planning to write or make videos for. It cost just a penny, so my change; what should’ve been a nickel and four pennies but seemed like nine pennies; landed in the little coin dispenser.
A co-worker; a girl who looked like a cuter version of Joanna Jędrzejczyk; stood in front of me; the exit door to a bright sunny day was just a few feet ahead; grabbed the coins before I had a chance to. She did it playfully, with a smile, pretending to steal my money.
“If I had a chance to clean it,” I said, “I would’ve snatched it right out of your hand.” I was known as somewhat of a germaphobe; I usually wore gloves, cleaned a lot and do disinfect my coins in real life; but she didn’t really laugh. She just continued to smile at me in a flirty way.
If she wanted me sexually, the feeling was mutual. If it was romanced she desired, we could’ve worked that out too. She wasn’t exactly my type, but she fit the criteria of being light-skinned; she was Polish or something; thin and short enough. Her face was just okay.
2026 May 06
2020 August
I’d finally made up my mind to reserve my new apartment. I was already living there, in what seemed like a fairly upscale gated community of sorts, but the whole complex was being rebuilt. I walked, from who knows where, along the far end past huge piles of what looked like fresh soil; what was to be the foundation of our homes; as construction workers paved it down for other units.
It was daytime, probably in the afternoon, as I made my way to what I assume was the leasing office. There was a sense of urgency; I walked briskly; because I didn’t want someone to reserve my new unit before I had a chance. That would mean that once my lease was up, I’d have to find a whole new place to live instead of being able to simply walk my stuff over to the new apartment.
They were building new units, but it seemed we were somehow able to stay in the old ones until ours were complete. I contemplated asking a worker how long a unit takes to built. “I know it depends,” I would’ve phrased it as some units were bigger and more extravagant (expensive) than others, “but about how long does the average unit take to complete?” I just wanted a rough estimate.
I never asked though. The workers looked busy and I wanted to reserve my new unit as soon as possible. Still, after walking along what seemed like the west and then south side of the complex toward my current (old) unit; the new one was going to be built just a short walk away; I decided to stop there. I had to pass it anyway on my way to the leasing office from wherever I was walking.
I stayed in “407”. At least that’s what it said on my door. I was inside at this point, in the shared kitchen area. There were other people there; I remember a blondish-haired girl; walking around, probably cooking and stuff. From the outside, the units seemed independent like normal apartments. On the inside, it was more like a college-style dorm with several private rooms in each unit.
My room was on the highest; it looked like the third; floor beside two other rooms. There was a single room underneath and likely more on the first floor apart from the kitchen. I would’ve hated such living conditions in real life because even if we had private kitchenettes and bathrooms in our rooms, you had to walk thru the unit, past other people if they were there, to enter and exit.
Perhaps the excitement of reserving a new unit meant I’d have a lot more privacy if not the whole place to myself. That’s the only thing that would’ve made sense. Having to walk past and inevitably converse with people as I entered and exited my room would’ve been a nightmare and surely not all my neighbors could’ve been attractive blondish-haired girls I’d be looking to have sex with.
2025 November 22
I don’t remember what I had to visit my old high or middle school for, but, whatever it was, it seemed to require me to have a locker. I’d gotten a temporary combination from the main office; I remember reading the numbers from a little piece of paper while kneeling at the low locker; after signing in.
It was all legit, meaning I hadn’t snuck in like I’d done in previous dreams and wasn’t worried about going to jail; that is until I realized, with sudden panic, that I had my gun on me. The little pistol I keep in my left pocket was there in my left pocket. I’d apparently forgotten to leave it in the car.
I don’t know whether or not I’d already done what I came to do, but it didn’t matter. My only concern was to leave as quick as possible without being caught. So I locked the locker, which seemed to be on the second floor, and headed downstairs. I tried to walk at a normal pace as to not cause any suspicious.
Though it’s legal to own and carry a gun where I live, there are some exceptions; high schools and middle schools being the most serious among them. I wondered how I’d gotten in pass the metal detectors; maybe they weren’t working; and was quite concerned that I’d trigger one on the way out.
The place was built like my real-life middle school and, after looking around for security guards, I left on what would’ve been the southeast exit near the bottom of the parking lot. With an immediate sense of relief, I turned northwest on the front walkway, blending in with the massive crowd of kids.
I saw Morrell and said something to him about my teacher being absent and having to go to the other side of the building for class. At that point I was telling the truth as the dream went from me visiting what seemed like my old middle school as an adult to actually attending my old high school as a teen.
2025 November 21

The prelude call on the Notorious BIG version, which goes over a minute, is unnecessary if not a bit annoying, but the beat bangs. I love the snares. The LL Cool J beat, produced and enhanced with scratches by Rick Rubin, is notable/unique in its own right. It’s one of hip-hop’s Coolest songs in the chic sense of the term and has a better chorus section.
my vote : LL Cool J
2024
1990
Her red feet were the main thing I noticed when I returned from wherever I’d been the past few hours. I saw her on my walk there. She was just setting up her mini restaurant; a food truck of sorts at which customers could sit and eat under an umbrella roof. By the time I returned, it had just closed and she was sweeping the street.
I greeted her and asked how it went. She was apparently new to the gig. It may have even been her first day. She smiled; she’s one of my all-time favorite cuties; and said it went very well. I was genuinely happy for her. Her new business; I think it was Cuban or Columbian food; was evidently a success. I could tell she was exhausted though.
That goes back to her feet. She was wearing sandals and I could see just from looking down at them that the soles were red (pink) and probably sore. I desperately wanted to rub them; not just to make her feel better but for my own romantic and sexual desires. She’s one of the biggest crushes I ever had. She knew I had one on her but not how big.
She was also sweaty; it was a hot day in Florida; and breathing heavy from all the cleaning, which only turned me on more. If we weren’t standing out there on a public, albeit nearly empty, street; I think there was one man, perhaps a remaining police officer, standing near; I might’ve proposed my foot massage right then and there.
Instead she offered to make me a plate. I wasn’t particularly hungry, don’t like eating around people and didn’t want her to have to work any more than she’d already had, so I politely declined, but she sort of insisted on it. She started to walk me over to her food truck thingy. She obviously wanted me to try it, so I decided not to put up a fight.
She sat me at a table if you can call it that. The cramped umbrella roof area; the only place to sit if you didn’t already have a festival chair; couldn’t have fit more than a few people at a time. At this time, since she’d technically closed, I was the only one as she began to prepare my plate. Whatever it was, I was going to enjoy it coming from her.
2025 September 28