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a dream I had about watching a video of a girl being killed

I was watching a video of people being shot and killed. I don’t know whether it was a compilation of different shooters in different instances or clips of one shooter on a rampage, but the one killing that stands out in my mind; the only one I actually remember; is of a girl who might’ve been able to escape but chose not to.

This particular clip was of one shooter on a rampage. He was outside, surrounded by frantic people and stopped cars, in what could’ve been a city street or parking lot, shooting at seemingly anyone in sight. Most people were running for their lives, as expected, but this one girl got out of her car and walked right over to him.

It was a black girl, a young woman actually, probably in her 20s or early 30s. She was physically attractive too, at least in the fakeup (makeup) and wig or weave she was probably wearing. She certainly had a sexy body, though, these days, who knows if even that were real. She seemed to be dressed somewhat fancily.

I didn’t know the woman or anything about her other than what I could see in the video, but I imagined her beauty made her so arrogant that she actually thought the guy wouldn’t shoot her. That’s certainly what her body language suggested as she walked briskly toward him with an irritated expression on her face.

It was as if she was thinking, “Nigga, I ain’t about to let you hold up traffic and ruin my plans.” Perhaps she gained even more confidence in the split seconds it took for her to approach him without getting shot. He was still shooting at other people, in fact, seeming to ignore or purposely avoid shooting her.

The cameraman; either the bravest soul in the world or an accomplice of the shooter; stopped panning as she walked out of frame to where the shooter was standing. Neither said a word, but she must’ve tried to grab the gun out of his hand or something. He was shooting so much, you couldn’t tell what happened.

That is until the camera finally panned around, pass the shooter, to the girl now standing on the other side of him. I don’t remember seeing blood, but he’d obviously shot her. The scowl she had on her face was now a look of distress as she stumbled about and collapsed onto the hood of a car. That’s when the blood came.

I remember imagining what she was thinking at that moment. Her facial expression suggested instant regret. It was apparent she didn’t walk over to him because she wanted to die. I could see her struggling to live. It seemed she walked over to him to get the gun out of his hand and simply didn’t think he would shoot her.

Blood was coming from her nose and mouth. I think she’d been shot in the stomach area. She was lying on her back with her legs dangling off the front of the car. I remember her struggling to sit up and falling back down. That’s when the shooter walked over and shot her twice more; first in the pussy then in the heart.

2021 November 01

albums I had on cassette

  • A Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing [ Black Sheep ]
  • Act Like You Know [ MC Lyte ]
  • AmeriKKKa’s Most Wanted [ Ice Cube ]
  • And In This Corner [ DJ Jazzy Jeff And The Fresh Prince ]
  • Apocalypse 91 : The Enemy Strikes Black [ Public Enemy ]
  • Bad : Bigger And Deffer [ LL Cool J ]
  • Banned In The USA [ Uncle Luke ]
  • Black Pearl [ YoYo ]
  • Brainstorm [ Young MC ]
  • Civilization Versus Technology : Heal [ compilation ]
  • Cool Hand Lōc [ Tone Lōc ]
  • Cosmic Thing [ The B-52s ]
  • Cypress Hill [ Cypress Hill ]
  • Daily Operation [ Gang Starr ]
  • Dangerous [ Michael Jackson ]
  • De La Soul Is Dead [ De La Soul ]
  • Dead Serious [ Das EFX ]
  • Death Certificate [ Ice Cube ]
  • Diamonds And Pearls [ Prince ]
  • Doggystyle [ Snoop Dogg ]
  • Doin Hard Time On Planet Earth [ 2 Black 2 Strong MMG ]
  • Done By The Forces Of Nature [ Jungle Brothers ]
  • Edutainment [ Boogie Down Productions ]
  • Extremely Live [ Vanilla Ice ]
  • Fade To Black [ Cookie Crew ]
  • Faith [ George Michael ]
  • Federal [ E-40 ]
  • Fine Young Cannibals [ Fine Young Cannibals ]
  • Funky Divas [ En Vogue ]
  • Ghetto Music : The Blueprint Of Hip-Hop [ Boogie Down Productions ]
  • Girl You Know It’s True [ Milli Vanilli ]
  • Gonna Make You Sweat [ C And C Music Factory ]
  • Homebase [ DJ Jazzy Jeff And The Fresh Prince ]
  • I Gotta Get Mine Yo [ Chubb Rock ]
  • I Need A Haircut [ Biz Markie ]
  • I’m Goin Out Lika Soldier [ Willie D ]
  • In A Major Way [ E-40 ]
  • Into The Future [ MC Rell And The Houserockers ]
  • It Takes Two [ Rob Base And DJ EZ Rock ]
  • J Beez Wit The Remedy [ Jungle Brothers ]
  • Jungle Fever : Music From The Movie [ Stevie Wonder ]
  • Led Zeppelin [ Led Zeppelin ]
  • Licensed To Ill [ Beastie Boys ]
  • Little Big Man [ Bushwick Bill ]
  • Live And Let Die [ Kool G Rap And DJ Polo ]
  • Live Hardcore Worldwide [ Boogie Down Productions ]
  • Lōc-ed After Dark [ Tone Lōc ]
  • Looks Like A Job For [ Big Daddy Kane ]
  • Lyte As A Rock [ MC Lyte ]
  • Mack Daddy [ Sir Mix-A-Lot ]
  • Made In USA [ The Beach Boys ]
  • Make Way For The Motherlode [ YoYo ]
  • Mama Said Knock You Out [ LL Cool J ]
  • MC Breed And DFC [ MC Breed + DFC ]
  • Mecca And The Soul Brother [ Pete Rock And CL Smooth ]
  • Michel’le [ Michel’le ]
  • Nature Of A Sista [ Queen Latifah ]
  • Of The Heart Of The Soul And Of The Cross : The Utopian Experience [ PM Dawn ]
  • Off The Deep End [ Weird Al Yankovic ]
  • OG : Original Gangster [ Ice-T ]
  • Party Mix | Mesopotamia [ The B-52s ]
  • Paul’s Boutique [ Beastie Boys ]
  • Peaceful Journey [ Heavy D And The Boyz ]
  • Play It Again Shan [ MC Shan ]
  • Please Hammer Don’t Hurt Em [ MC Hammer ]
  • Power …Ice-T ]
  • Power Rap [ compilation ]
  • Prince Of Darkness [ Big Daddy Kane ]
  • Quik Is the Name [ DJ Quik ]
  • Radio [ LL Cool J ]
  • Rap Rap Rap [ compilation ]
  • Remembrance Days [ The Dream Academy ]
  • Return Of The Boom Bap [ KRS-One ]
  • Rhythm Nation : 1814 [ Janet Jackson ]
  • Runnin Off At Da Mouth [ Twista ]
  • Serious Hits : Live [ Phil Collins ]
  • Sex And Violence [ Boogie Down Productions ]
  • Sex Packets [ Digital Underground ]
  • Shadow Dancing [ Andy Gibb ]
  • Sons Of The Father [ YZ ]
  • Sons Of The P [ Digital Underground ]
  • Spellbound [ Paula Abdul ]
  • Spice 1 [ Spice 1 ]
  • Stone Cold Rhymin [ Young MC ]
  • Straight Up Sewaside [ Das EFX ]
  • Stunts Blunts And Hip Hop [ Diamond D ]
  • Take A Look Around [ Masta Ace ]
  • Taste Of Chocolate [ Big Daddy Kane ]
  • Tell It To My Heart [ Taylor Dayne ]
  • Terminator X And The Valley Of The Jeep Beets [ Terminator X ]
  • The Biz Never Sleeps [ Biz Markie ]
  • The Boy Genius [ Kwamé ]
  • The Chronic [ Dr Dre ]
  • The Low End Theory [ A Tribe Called Quest ]
  • The Mail Man [ E-40 ]
  • The Raw And The Cooked [ Fine Young Cannibals ]
  • The Revival [ Tony Toni Toné ]
  • The Ruler’s Back [ Slick Rick ]
  • The Simpsons Sing The Blues ]
  • The Slim Shady LP [ Eminem ]
  • To The East Blackwards [ X Clan ]
  • To The Extreme [ Vanilla Ice ]
  • Too Legit To Quit [ MC Hammer ]
  • Totally Krossed Out [ Kriss Kross ]
  • Via Satellite From Saturn [ Home Team ]
  • We Can’t Be Stopped [ Geto Boys ]
  • We Can’t Dance [ Genesis ]
  • When Disaster Strikes [ Busta Rhymes ]
  • Whoomp : There It Is [ Tag Team ]
  • WrestleMania : The Album [ compilation ]
  • Xodus [ X Clan ]
  • You Better Ask Somebody [ YoYo ]
  • 14 Shots To The Dome [ LL Cool J ]
  • 187 He Wrote [ Spice 1 ]
  • 2 Hype [ Kid N Play ]
  • 3 Feet High And Rising [ De La Soul ]
  • 3 Years 5 Months And 2 Days In The Life Of [ Arrested Development ]

a dream I had about overhearing my lesbian roommate have sex

I might’ve already been awake, but I think it was the sound of them having sex that woke me up. Either way I was lying in bed under the covers, at least a blanket or sheet, when I overheard, or just heard, Tiara, my lesbian roommate, having sex.

I say “overheard, or just heard” because she obviously wasn’t trying to be discreet in any way. Perhaps she didn’t think I was home, but she should’ve known there was a chance. Perhaps she knew or figured I was and actually wanted me to hear her.

I say “her” instead of “them” because I could barely hear the other girl. It was mostly Tiara’s voice I heard; she was talking loud and clear almost to the point of projection; over the sound of rhythm bed creaking. That’s what really turned me on.

Tiara’s voice actually went against that, meaning it turned me off a bit. Not that she doesn’t have a sexy voice; I actually love her voice; but because of what she was saying. She was engaging in what people refer to as dirty talk, which I’m generally turned off by.

I don’t recall her exact words, but she made references to “pussy” and I clearly remember her saying she was about to “cum” before she apparently did; just the kind of forced utterances that put me off of most professional, and even some amateur, porn.

Her saying the girl’s name aloud; it was either “Alexandra” or “Alexandria”; and pronouncing almost everything with perfect school-taught enunciation, as she typically does, only made it sound more forced, or faker, than it already would’ve.

It was the sound of that bed, not to mention the other girl’s comparatively natural-sounding moaning on top of it, that turned me more on than off. Tiara must’ve been fucking her with a strap-on dildo to make it creak and the walls rock like that.

I would’ve loved to be a fly on the wall in her room. We lived in a college-dorm-like apartment with one or two other people. Tiara, a girl I know in real life, is cute enough despite her boyish (stud/dyke) look. I soon realized the other girl looked even better.

She was a much cuter Asian girl. I found that out when, I think because I yelled some kind of funny joke to let them know I heard them, she followed Tiara into my room. Tiara was grinning and apparently they’d both just orgasmed, so they were slightly out of breath.

“Hi Tiara and Tiara’s girlfriend,” I said before Tiara could get a chance to introduce us. She made it seem like that grin came out of embarrassment, but I think it was mostly pride; not the fake pride “LGBT” people parade about but actual pride.

The Asian girl reached out to shake my hand. I remember being sort of surprised, and majorly disappointed, that her hand wasn’t wet. It was little, soft, warm and inherently sweet; I really wanted to fuck this girl myself, with a real dick; but not wet.

Thinking about the dream, I don’t know why I expected her hand to be wet. I guess I figured she had just fingered Tiara’s pussy, but the bed sounds suggested her hands were either out to her sides or on Tiara’s back, so that wouldn’t have made much sense.

2021 October 03

a dream I had about watching My Girl in class

It must’ve been a short class as we watched My Girl; the Macaulay Culkin movie; for what seemed like the third day. It was playing on a TV on one of those rolling stands at the front of the classroom and we were apt to pay attention because the teacher would give us daily quizzes on it.

The movie seemed to be on a montage scene when I arrived relatively early that day to find that, much to my delight, the seats; we had black chairs as opposed to traditional school desks; farthest to the back and closest to the window were empty, which meant I got to sit in the very last one.

I liked not being surrounded by people. Like most of the time in life, I just wanted to be left alone. Besides, while it was sort of embarrassing watching a kid romance movie with a bunch of people; it was a fairly large class; it was vital that I paid attention and got good grades on the quizzes.

2021 September 25