
2005

2005











I don’t know who she was; a porn girl of some kind; but she was hot, figuratively and literally. I gazed at the screen in a virtual trance as she stood there, sweating more than I ever remember seeing a girl sweat, which turned me on even more. She wasn’t wearing a shirt or anything, so the sweat dripped from her face down her neck to perhaps the most amazing pair of tits I’ve ever seen in my life. They were so round and plump… and suckable. The nipples were big and fat with what appeared to be caramel-colored Fruit-Roll-Up-like growths of extra skin sticking out at the tips. It was both exotic and erotic. I wanted to suck them so bad.
I must’ve been watching the girl on some type of live internet broadcast because I had the sense of other people in other places watching along with me. I could even see some of them. I guess they could see me too. Not that we were paying attention to each other. All eyes were on her and those amazing tits, which had to be breaking a record for most simultaneous erections. One guy pulled his out, somehow detached it from his body and set it on a table or counter as a present to her. It was perhaps the biggest dick I’d ever seen. When she saw it, she smiled. If we were just a bunch of horny guys competing for her attention, he won.
2011 December 23

As far as the validity of religion goes, I don’t think The Westboro Baptist Church is much different than any other Christian church. They’re all based on faith, which is stupid. The one significant difference is that The Westboro Baptist Church, headed by Fred Phelps and Shirley Phelps, is more outspoken than most when it comes to sins; specifically the sin of being gay; and thus the target of more criticism from a society in which gay people are becoming increasingly more accepted and protected.
But from everything I’ve heard and read about Christianity, the views of that particular church does reflect what it says in their source book; The Bible. It’s just that, unlike most other churches, they present their views without cowarding under the moral diplomacy of modern society. In other words, The Bible implies that homosexuality is a sin and people who “commit” that sin will forever burn in Hell if they don’t repent. If true, that would certainly serve as evidence for the claim that God hates fags.
On the other hand, The Bible’s ambiguity makes it a collection of contradictions in which God can hate fags and love them at the same time, fags can go to Hell and Heaven at the same time, and perhaps any sin can be unsinned with repentance. It all depends on individual interpretation. That’s part of what makes The Bible, Christianity and religion in general so ridiculous. The main thing that makes them so ridiculous is that they assume there really is a such thing as God in the first place.
All I knew was that Adam looked young, very young. He’s 24 now, but he was a kid again. We were upstairs at the house we grew-up in, so I figured I must’ve somehow time-traveled back to the past; a fact that was all but confirmed when I took a look in the mirror.
Seeing myself that young again brought upon instant joy because it meant that I’d be able to have something I’ve always wanted; a longer life and a second chance to go back and improve a significant portion of the life I’ve already lived.
It had to be the late 1990s. Not only was Adam there, but also Chelia, Tobe, Gabe and some little kid I don’t think I’ve ever met in real life. He was a few years younger than Adam, maybe seven or eight. I’m not really skilled when it comes to guessing ages. But I was going to use him to determine mine. I told him the year I was born and, in a fun playful gamey sort of way, told him to figure-out how old I am based on the year it is, whatever year it was.
He smirked and began to think, taking it as a math challenge, but I never got a chance to hear his answer. We were all upstairs, in what at the time was my living area, about to record a battle rap or something. At least me, Adam and Tobe were. Gabe and the others were just going to watch and laugh.
It was a fun time for all of us, but, underneath mere smiles, I was competely ecstatic. I knew what was going to happen in the future; when extended family members were going to die, when Michael Jackson was going to die, and everything else I know now, though none of it had happened yet. I could’ve made myself instant fame and fortune as a real-life time traveler, a psychic of sorts, and I knew it.
I didn’t tell anyone about it though. I had to figure-out when and how to reveal my secret, a decision that probably would’ve taken days or weeks. I was mainly contemplating how I was going to relive my own life, specifically how to avoid the bad times and use my knowledge to live the happiest life possible. But, of course, it was all too good to be true.
I figured, even in the dream, that I must’ve been dreaming. But it didn’t really matter because, for some reason, it still seemed like a permanent thing, as if I was never going to awake. Maybe I thought I’d died and was simply living my life again. I don’t know. But I awoke for at least a second or few when I turned over in my sleep. It was only then that I came to my senses and realized my little trip thru the past wasn’t going to happen.
2011 December 09
No. I don’t know if he was or not; you never know about anyone other than yourself; but I have no reason to think he was because I’ve never come across any real evidence to suggest it. He was publically accused of molesting a kid in 1993 and criminally charged with molesting a different kid in 2003, but, following the logic of the law that says people are innocent until proven guilty, which is stupid because neither guilt nor innocence should ever be assumed, I think he’s “innocent” in both cases.
That’s based on my assessment of the facts presented. I think both cases were motivated by money and malice more than anything, but that says nothing about him being a pedophile in the general sense of simply being sexually or romantically attracted to kids. That’s much harder, if not impossible, to prove either way. As far as I know, it’s certainly possible. It’s just that I don’t have any evidence to sway my opinion either way, which makes the one-sided title question very easy to answer.
I think it depends on whether or not he has a justifiable reason for punching her. If, for example, he’s punching her because she verbally attacked him, then he’s wrong. If he’s punching her because she physically attacked him, then he’s not wrong.
I don’t think I could draw a definite line between the two. Purposely breaking a valuable item of his justifies a punch. Purposely breaking the rules of a monogamous relationship by having sex with another guy doesn’t. It just depends on the reason.







